I can remember only to well the fear that seemed to sweep over me when I first became frightened of being alone and how I just didn’t want anybody to know in case they thought that I was losing my mind.
It is only having made a complete recovery and carrying out the research for my ebook that I realise that monophobia, or the fear of being alone can affect anybody at any time. You may be surprised to learn monophobia sufferers consist of both male and female, any age group and all personalities.
For me, it all started when I had to take time off work due to illness. The strange thing is, I can’t even remember now what the illness was, but one thing that I do remember is that whilst my husband was at work I began to experience feelings that I had never felt before. This can be best described as a niggling anxiety, a fear that wouldn’t leave me and which I just could not understand.
I confided in my husband when he came home and he just told me it must be because I was not feeling very well in general, and to be honest, that was exactly what I was thinking.
Anyway, my general health improved and I began to feel better, apart from this irrational fear every time I was left alone and deep down, I just know that it was getting worse and I started to look for any excuse not to be left on my own. If my husband was working when I was not, I would go and visit my friends and family and even though none of them said anything, they are all to nice for that, I was becoming a bit of a burden because I over stayed my welcome more times that I care to remember.
I knew I had to see my doctor and when he advised me to take medication to calm me down I really did feel awful. That was about the lowest point of my illness and then by some kind of miracle I was introduced to a friend of a friend who was a therapist who had dealt with monophobia many times, and knew the steps that had to be taken in order to get over it.
After a short period of time I began to feel so much better and to be honest, when I look back the whole episode has turned me into a much stronger person and the funny thing is, I now actually enjoy spending time by myself, who would have thought that I would ever be saying that!
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