I can’t begin to tell you about all of the embarrassing incidents that I experienced because of my fear of being alone. Whilst it is true that I can look back now and smile, at the time, smiling was the last thing that I could imagine doing for reasons I will explain in a little while.
I can remember arranging to go around to a friends house one day and really looking forward to it because I knew that I wouldn’t be by myself. It just so happened that my husband had an important conference to attend so he wouldn’t be back home until the evening.
Anyway, I had been at my friends house all day and it was only 4pm but I knew that she was busy but I just kept on making excuse after excuse as to why I should stay a little longer. Don’t get me wrong, she didn’t ask me to leave or anything like that, it’s just that you know when it is time to go, I knew it was time to go but the thought of going home and spending some time on myself truly terrified me.
These kind of occasions were taking place all of the time and looking back I should have just told my friends and family about my problem but I was just to embarrassed. Since I have fully recovered I have told everyone and if anything they are all quite annoyed with me, annoyed that I didn’t trust them enough to share what was wrong and I have to say, at the time, I never really thought of it like that at all.
So, my advice to you if you are going through the fear of being alone at the moment is to tell people, they won’t laugh and you may be surprised that some of them could be going through exactly the same thing themselves. A problem shared is definitely a problem halved and this is the case when it comes to monophobia.
I am pretty sure that once you tell people you will immediately start to feel a little relief because one of the main problems with monophobia is that you spend so much time actually worrying what people will think, and your friends and family won’t think that you’ve lost your marbles because they will be fully aware of the problem that you are facing at the moment.
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